My life has felt a bit rainy lately too. Two weeks ago on this blog I announced that our family was expecting a new life. Last week, at just over 15 weeks pregnancy we found out that our baby no longer had a heartbeat. So, our baby is in heaven with his/her Lord and Maker. We had a difficult week, but we are not without hope or comfort. We know where our baby is and we have the blessing of 5 other children to raise. I get hugs and kisses whenever I need them too and that so helps. Even the big open-mouthed ones from Zachary. :-)
During the last few months and especially this past week I've grown to realize (more) that I am not my own but belong to my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. I may have plans for my life and think I can control things, but really, I can't.
I am looking forward to having my kids around for Christmas Holidays. Sleeping in, not rushing to get them to bed on time, but savouring the time with them. No homework, no songs to learn and no tests to study for. Maybe some crafting, game playing, baking, visiting, turkey eating and hopefully some snow to play in somewhere in there.
Here's a few photos for those who know me in 'real' life and want to see my children. I noticed that I don't take near enough photos of Benjamin. I will have to remedy that.
Watching Daddy make breakfast.
On Remembrance Day we went to the ranch and the girls got to 'ride' a horse for the first time. They loved it!
I also got to 'ride' the horse and Melissa documented this with about 50 photos! Not one of them looks very good (and many of them don't have either me or the horse on the photo!)
Love you!!
ReplyDeletePrayers with you and your fam! That you would continue to feel washed in the love of Jesus even during the hard times.
ReplyDeleteAlisa my prayers are with you.Im so sorry to hear of your loss. I know its not easy hang in there. Lotsa love
ReplyDeleteTania
I've been reading your blog for a while, but not sure I've ever commented. I just wanted to say I'm sorry for your loss. I've prayed for you today!
ReplyDeleteI'm so very sorry for your loss. I know that pain. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteMy condolences to you, Alisa, and your family.
ReplyDeleteHi Alisa
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and hope you're doing ok.
Jen
:( I'm so sorry to hear that. I don't know you, but I know your sweet sister, and I know the pain of losing children. But we do indeed know they are not "lost".
ReplyDelete"I will go to him, but he shall not return to me." (2 Sam 12:23b)
I am so sorry for your loss. I think sometimes people forget that it is still a loss even if you did not hold the child. I lost my second at 15 weeks. I hope you heal in every way quickly.
ReplyDeleteThinking and praying for you during this difficult time.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and your family. I am so sorry to hear your sad news. x
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry, sweet Alisa. I know your pain, having experienced the same 3 times. It's okay to grief, and it's okay to cry, all at the same time knowing that God is sovereign and in control. I'm praying for you and your family.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear your sad news. The healing power of hugs and kisses really is amazing!
ReplyDeleteSomeone once told me that when a baby dies at a young age (even before birth) it means that God's purpose for this baby's life has already been fulfilled. I think there is so much truth in that! We learn so much from these experiences, and it is a great thought than one of our children was the one to teach us! That still doesn't take away all the pain! Praying for healing and lots of hugs and kisses from your beautiful family!
ReplyDeleteAlisa, I'm so sorry to hear of your sad news. We'll be thinking and praying for you too!
ReplyDeleteAlisa, sorry to hear your sad news. May you be given some peace during this holiday season.
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